Sunday, 26 June 2011

Day 42 (26 June 2011) - Confidence is a preference of the habitual voyeur

...of what is known as 'parklife'...apparently.  Always loved bouncing around to that song at univeristy, but never had a ruddy clue what 'parklife' was. 

Anyway, greetings.  I'm aware it's been one whole week since the last post - the longest gap between posts yet.  Does this mean that enthusiasm is fading?  Am I slipping back into my old comfortable, but quite apathetic ways? 

NO it Bo Diddly doesn't.  For I have been beavering away like one of those beaver-type things working, socialising and generally keeping busier that a particularly buzzy bee who's just been told that the honey quota is way down.

When I started this blog, I said that the purpose of asking my nearest and dearest to set me tasks was to ensure I made the most of the endless world of opportunity that lay in front of me.  That much was certainly true, but if I'm honest - and we're 42 days in now, so we're practically family - it was as much about feeling totally lost and bereft of much in the way of self-confidence as it was about the opportunities.  Guess they're two sides of the same coin.  The start of this journey (Simon Cowell would be so proud) wasn't the happiest time of my life, so having things to aim for was a way of ensuring I didn't allow myself to spiral down into a world of 'poor me'...and I knew I could count on you to help avoid that.  And what a job you've done!  In addition to my many exciting challenges, I've never been so popular - I think I've had the two nights in over the last month!  My liver isn't exactly overjoyed with this turn of events and, granted, I do now look 87, however I am having sooooo much fun.  Now whether it's seeing so many of my amezzin friends, the improved weather or simply planetary alignment who knows, but at the moment I feel on top of the world.  Confident?  I'm bordering on cocky.  It's amazing how things can turn round so quickly, but right now life is marvellous...in fact (and I feel terribly guilty saying this) but I can't remember feeling this happy for ages.  You did that you very special bunch of people (I hate to single out people, but special shout outs to the Sisters Nott, Mr Heywood, Mr Barron, Ms Ewart and Mr Way who have been more helpful than you will ever know).   Ohh, it's turned into an Oscar speech.  Marvellous!

All of this is, of course, by way of another excuse for lack of progress on challenges.  I've wheeled out a good few over the past 42 days, but being able to say that I've just been out having too much fun and living life to the full is one I'm particularly proud of.  However, I have a week off work this week, so progress will be forthcoming...promise...and if it isn't, please berate me accordingly.

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